Lucid dreams.
I keep wondering why I continue to have vivid chapters of dreaming in my life.
I’ll go weeks with nothing but black in my dreams, and then for a few weeks I will have dreams that I control, dreams where things happen (and sometimes happen later on) and even a few dreams taking a step back in that my old best friend, who passed away, is a major role. I understand now that my total acceptance of his passing has something to do with it, but it still doesn’t make it any easier on me when I continue to dream about him.
The dream sequences that really haunt me are the ones of specific ordinary sequences…which later unfold weeks in the future, and much to being totally and completely dumbfounded in those actual sequences. See, by the time they actually occur, it’s been weeks and weeks, so the dreams are but a glimmer in my memory…but when the sequences occur, it jars them from my memory and absolutely stuns me. The most interesting thing worth taking note of is my lack of ability to have any effect on these sequences, besides just watching them unfold while being captured in an almost trance-like déjà vu.
I’m not sure if there is a way to totally understand my dreams, as they are linked to the unconscious mind. I know there’s alot of analytical books and articles on it, but once again, the mind is a very individual entity and I feel like most use general approaches instead of intimate psychology.
(added: had another lucid dream today. Woke up a few times, only to fall asleep and go back to the same dream. Interesting part: was more of a lucid nightmare than anything.)
